dinsdag 9 oktober 2018

dinsdag 9 oktober 2018 Restless night. Two years of not sleeping well. Midnight movie - MST3K: It Conquered The World.

He learned almost too late that man is a feeling creature… and, because of it, the greatest in the universe. He learned too late for himself that men have to find their own way, to make their own mistakes. There can't be any gift of perfection from outside ourselves. And when men seek such perfection… they find only death… fire… loss… disillusionment… the end of everything that's gone forward. Men have always sought an end to the toil and misery, but it can't be given, it has to be achieved. There is hope, but it has to come from inside — from man himself.

— Peter Graves' final speech. Look what you did! Voter registrations skyrocket after Taylor Swift's get-out-the-vote push. A guy downtown (the only fan in Bellingham?) is wearing a Taylor Swift t-shirt.

The death instinct, called Thanatos by post-Freudians, is driven by fear, hatred and violence. It's the end of all living things. Chris Hedges is on The Record to talk about how Americans have embraced the "Death Instinct." Hedges has talked about this - The Dance of Death.

I'd like to be on the side of Eros. I remember a sunny day (2013). I watched my solar flowers dancing on the window sill in my Seattle apartment. And I watched The Day After Tomorrow. Despite the beautiful sunshine, I was feeling nihilistic, I guess.